Friday, June 06, 2008


What if this is all there is?

If this is all there is, I probably won't ever make it back to Japan, China, Ireland, or France. I may never make that big trip that I always planned to Vienna, Prague, and Budapest or the other big trip to Morocco, Tunisia, and Egypt. I have no idea if I'll ever make any one of the smaller trips I'd love to make, such as to Peru, Vietnam, or Montreal. It's unlikely that I'll learn more than a few words in another language. I probably won't ever buy a bigger home, a bigger car, or bigger shoes. I doubt I'll ever be a CEO, CIO, or CFO, let alone a CPA, CFA, or CFP. I don't think I'll ever grow a beard. I may never be well-known and I'll never know if I've been missed. I'll probably never hold my own child.

If this is all there is, I'll go to work 5 days a week and come home at the end of the day. I'll try to exercise more and eat less. At least every other week I'll eat sushi at my neighborhood bar, where I'm a regular. I'll cook a fancy dinner for myself either Saturday or Sunday, and then I'll do the dishes. I'll probably eat in front of the tv, watch for a bit more, then crawl into bed with a book for 30 minutes or so before turning out the lights. I'll eventually get my patio the way I want it and "finish" decorating my home. Every couple of months, I'll drive up to my parents cabin in the Hill Country, stopping for BBQ in one small town and pastries in another. Once in a while I'll go out to a club to hear a band, or I might even go see a movie. For birthdays & Christmas, I'll lavish embarassingly large gifts on my nephews and niece. I'll also give my sister's kids candy, get them all riled up, and send them home. I suppose life will go on.

But if there's more...


At 6:22 PM, Blogger Brighton said...

I tell myself that this is enough.

I don't always believe me, but I tell myself that anyway.

At 11:28 AM, Blogger Crystal said...

you forgot about cherry flavored pez.

At 8:22 AM, Blogger Beth said...

If this is all there is, then make the most of it. Live it like this is what you've always wanted.

But if this isn't what you've always wanted...then go get it.

At 8:06 AM, Blogger Badaunt said...

There is always more.

At 10:55 AM, Blogger christelpistol said...

cause i'm damn close to the hill country, ima need to know the names of said BBQ place AND baked goods shop.


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